Autumn Blues

Autumn leaves and rain
Heavy heart and thoughts
No reason to be so
But how to stop the blues

Staring at the raindrops
Running down the glass
Listless and tired
Hibernation would be nice

Always in November
Those blues come on knocking
Adjusting to the colder season
Is always kind of hard

For now I want to sulk
Be grumpy and passive
Complain about the weather
And the coldness it brought

I am sure soon I will be laughing
And enjoying autumn walks
To enjoy all its splendour
With lightness in my heart

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Silent Crash

We whispered the end
But the world did not cease
We touched on infinity
But it stopped right there
We tried to understand
But only drifted further
We asked for the impossible
But got something in return
We left all of it behind
But found something ahead
We laughed at our choices
But a tear drop erased them
We looked into each other’s eyes
But never saw it coming

Worries

I want to relax
To let all thoughts go
But monsters beseech me
Stealing my peace
The world is less bright
As they attack my senses
Do not know which way to turn
How to chase them away
A startled defender
Gaze sweeping around
Knowing so well
There is nowhere to run
Contemplating surrender
Then changing my mind
Finding the strength
To continue to fight

Sleep Elusive

I cannot sleep
My mind is racing
Inside my skull
My soul is pacing
Now all that I want
Is just to find
A way to leave
Wakefulness behind

Two in the morning
I long for sleep
But when I try
The minutes creep
By without release
A mind not tired
Keeps on rushing
And feeling wired

Sigh and roll over
Try once again
Get up for a while
A minute or ten
I know in the morning
When the day dawns
I’ll get up exhausted
Troubled by yawns

Time to go back
To my cosiest bed
To close my eyes
And hope it will let
Me find me my rest
So tomorrow I will
Grasp hold of the day
With energy to spill

*

Goodnight…

London

Eyes on infinity
Stride along the street
Don’t notice the strangers
Walk with assured feet

There is a place to go
There is someone to see
There is no time for pausing
I have somewhere to be

I know pigeons always move
Tourists stop and talk
But the locals never waver
From the path they walk

I know a place to drink
I know a place to eat
I know where at the station
To wait to find a seat

Today I really miss you
The buzz of all you are
But I have left you behind
To look back from afar

Once you were my home
Once you were my town
Once I knew your heartbeat
And your million city sounds

The Void

The emptiness fluctuates
Between non-existent and overpowering
Sometimes I forgot I had it
Or it is suddenly towering
Over a soul that feels so small
As if it shrank in the rain
Then it takes time to grow again
Taller than before it came

The feeling I know so well
That has become an estranged friend
Has sometimes felt so familiar
That I have missed it when it went
There is self indulgence in crying
To let out the heart wrenching pain
To only think of my own heart
Until I can feel empathy again

The void of the lonely
Who are not truly alone
Who have no reason for sadness
But tumble into that zone
For no reason apparent
It just happens overnight
And so it will dissolve
With the changing of the light

River Song (Jack and a Girl)

You took me by the hand
We smiled and then walked on
I loved being beside you
As the river sang her song

I wondered at the wisdom
Should we not have talked
‘This is such a bad idea’
I muttered as we walked

‘Bad ideas are the best ones’
You grinned as we went
I smiled without replying
And knew exactly what you meant

God knows we were lost
When twilight brought a kiss
Like none we had ever known
We were helpless to resist

We had laid our claims
Even if I could not see
That from that day forever
You would be a part of me

*

( part of the Jack and a Girl Anthology)